Invisible Illness Awareness Week

Today is the first day of invisible illness awareness week.  I had hoped to have a blog per day, and even started jotting things down to write about over six weeks ago, but I never got further than the brainstorming stage.   The last month seemed to be a month of setbacks. Invisible illness awareness week is here and it looks as if the blog per day thing will not be happening.  At least not this year. 

That is the life of chronic illness.  You make plans. You think you have a reasonable enough amount of time and energy to accomplish said plans.  Your body attacks you.  Your plans get pushed aside for more appointments or for more resting time.  Things that are not absolutely urgent have to wait, and blog posts fall into the "not urgent" category.

I felt pretty frustrated when I realized that once again, I was not making my goal to blog every day of invisible illness week.  It's been something I've hoped to do for the last several years.  Yet, August and September inevitably come and seem to be months that are covered up with doctor appointments and sickness.  Yet, as much as I wished that I had been able to reach the goal of one blog per day, I realize how incredibly appropriate it is that I missed that goal due to my illness.  

There is so much about invisible, chronic illness that people can't not even fathom unless they've lived it.  I know many people probably read this and think, how hard can it be to write a blog?  I only have a few hours of productiveness a day.  In those few hours, I have to try to everything I'd want to do or have to do.  Sometimes things like doctors appointments take priority.  Sometimes I'm fatigued and don't have the concentration to write.  Sometimes I'm discouraged and don't have the heart to write.  It seems so easy, but it's not.

Yet even in this I know there's most likely a reason.  Maybe God hasn't fully revealed to me what to say on a subject.  Maybe someone out there doesn't need my blogs today but will need them later.  Regardless, life goes on.  And I'm grateful, because even though there are still so many things I am not able to accomplish right now, I'm still able to do so much more than I was able to do four years ago.  

I still hope to have a few blogs this week.  The beginning of this week is pretty busy, but hopefully by the end of the week, things will slow down enough for me to catch my breathe enough to sit and write.  If not, well, I'll just write when I can.  Perhaps I need to start writing for next year now! ha!